Most people my age have kids, a family and things “all figured out”. I have always been the type of person to do things different, To question the rules. Not follow them.
I have always been a creative person. I have channeled it differently growing up. I would create because I was bored. In school I would draw. From drawing I went to writing. From writing I went to playing drums and writing music. From music I went to photography.
With all that, I always felt happy. I always felt free. I loved not following someone else’s rules. What I created was mine. I was free. No rules.
A bit of a sidetrack. I once even failed art class because I wanted to draw what I wanted to draw. I was bored of what the teacher was teaching. It wasn’t interesting to me. At the end I had a bad grade, but everyone loved my art and I made people smile. I was happy with the finished piece. That was more important to me. .
Like most artist, I overthink. At times I do feel behind, At times I feel like I need a degree. At times, I feel like maybe I should grow up. I know with everything in my heart I would be miserable. I would be empty living a lie. Living as a part in the machine of the system. I can’t accept it. I won’t compromise.
I know I am meant for something bigger. I always said a job is a one night stand. You can replace it, and they can replace you. I have seen people delicate their lives to a job, Just to be thrown away. I don't think that is right, and I don't want to be that person.
I am an artist. I love to create. An artist can not work for someone else and follow someone else's rules. Why trace when I can draw. You can live your dream or help someone else live theirs.
I will never surrender and I will never give up. I want to succeed or fail trying. Either way one of those things is happening. I see it as a 50/50 chance. Pretty good odds if you ask me.
From a pencil to drumsticks. From pen to camera. I will always create. I will always be an artist.